silent

my frustration level is running on high octane right now... the decisions i need to make become more and more convoluted and confusing as time passes. stemming from a desperate need to understand what the hell is going on in my life, i'm putting to words what i believe are my options. because this is such an inward-focused post, it may not make any sense at all to you - and that, in some ways, is deliberate. i need to be able to get it all out and not worry about it's readability. call it brainstorming, heartsearching, bellyacheing, whatever, but this one is for me. i share it with you because i believe so stongly in sharing our lives with one another - but i make no promises as to you having a clue what i'm writing about.

the way i see it:

option 1 - seattle - mhgs
option 2 - seattle - job
option 3 - baton rouge - nobts
option 4 - baton rouge - job
option 5 - baton rouge - lsu
option 6 - run away

the way He sees it:

options 1-6 - lack of faith

on top of all this is a silent disapproval that permeates many of my relationships... which stems from a lack of understanding and social norms. i totally get it that you don't get it - i don't get it either.