“Do I really have to do this?” Silence. An overwhelming sense of “You know you do, so quit asking” and yet, the flesh cringes and fear creeps in (ok, absolutely terrifies and envelopes) and I am caught.
The problem with sin is that it has consequences – sometimes far-reaching. The beauty of redemption and forgiveness is that they allow His light to shine, to heal, to correct, and to guide us to places we’d rather not go, but are blessed to have taken the journey once it’s over.
I’ve had several comments (not on the blog… boooo on people who won’t comment there) about my last post regarding the level of detail – or lack thereof – leaving a lot to the imagination. Well, quite honestly, it’s not just my sin – there are others involved which I will protect at all costs – and if I may be blunt, the sin is not the point. The healing, the love, the growth, the breaking out of 20-year sin cycles – His glory reigning in and over that situation – HE is the point. So rein your imaginations in – you’ll not get the details – they are not the point.
Continuing on from the last post, I talked to my pastor on a Tuesday. That Wednesday, I found myself in a position of asking for forgiveness from the one I hurt. Further proof that He is doing amazing things in my heart; that it has become more humble and unable to stand a wrong done to someone… I’ve had some difficult conversations in my life – we all have – but this one ranks right on up there in the top 5. Many tears and a couple of hours later, His light had further strengthened in me and another arrow had been knocked loose.
Don’t get me wrong – this was only achieved by Him and His grace. My obedience was part of it, my willingness to humble myself was part of it – but the desperate need to right a wrong, to repent and receive forgiveness – those are the things that drove me past my fear and into His light. As we talked, His Word absolutely exploded and He was glorified. His Word tells us that He turns all things for good for those who love Him – believe it, for it is Truth.
That Friday, the same friend and I ran out for Chinese take out. Check out the fortune cookies:
- My friend’s – Truth is a torch that gleams through the fog without dispelling it
- Mine – You gain strength when you stop and look fear in the face
Who says He can’t speak through ancient Chinese wisdom? He is the LORD Almighty – He can do whatever He pleases, and praise Him for it!
1 comment:
One of the great thinkers of our day has told me time and time again "Trust in Him for He is faithful." No matter how hard or difficult the situation seems, He is right there, waiting on us to call on His name. When we do, He shows off in amazing ways and He gets all the glory. Having recently gone through my own "You know you do so quit asking" conversation, I have to echo what you're saying. He gets all the glory because He gives us the strength, it's all Him, words, moves, everything Him.
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