i'll tell you, if i can, how all of the questions posed in the last post can be answered - how all of these circumstances can possibly glorify the LORD.
i have to be honest. in the weeks that i have been trying to write this post, i've found that i'm not going to be able to tell you HOW He is going to be glorified by my life. i just know that He will. does that make sense? i have not seen the full glory that He intends for many of these things - but i know that i will - and if i don't, my descendents will. sometimes, things happen that won't be fully understood in our lifetimes. the only way my heart can make sense of it is to fully embrace the truth that He never wastes a hurt, and that He always turns things for His good.
t made a statement a few weeks ago, that i'm not convinced was planned - it seemed more an afterthought, but it's stuck with me, resonating in my mind day after day. he said that "waits" are "opportunities to forget." that's it - exactly. i may never know how He chooses to glorify Himself, but i know - i cannot forget - that He has delivered, provided, forgiven, fought... prevailed WITHOUT FAIL. i don't believe that He's going to stop anytime soon...
reaux talked about taking thoughts captive, and that not doing so is an act of disobedience. that's a new thought for me. i'm hitting on thoughts because they are so much a part of defeat. too many lies, too much pride, too much flesh, too much me in there. if i would just stop, and KNOW, well, now, that would be an entirely different story, now wouldn't it?
jake talked about fear and anxiety crippling us - dividing our thoughts and our minds - our hearts - from the only One deserving of so much mental energy. i mean, really. i initially thought that i was going to try to answer each question posed in "don't", but that's really beside the point, isn't it? our faith is in the unseen, the yet to happen, the promises. yes, i need to heal, i need to trust, and i need to obey. i need to take the hint from josh's message on the israelites...
don't forget
the song below has been circling in my heart for weeks now. it's only by your prayers and His grace that i'm able to run to Him. thank you, deeply, for being on this journey with me.
When I cannot feel,
when my wounds don't heal
Lord I humbly kneel, hidden in You
Lord, You are my life
so I don't mind to die
Just as long as I am hidden in You
If I could just sit with You a while,
if You could just hold me
Nothing could touch me
though I'm wounded,
though I die
If I could just sit with You a while,
I need You to hold me
Moment by moment,
'till forever passes by
When I know I’ve sinned
when I should have been
Crying out my God
and hidden in you
Lord I need you now,
more than I know how
So I humbly bow,
hidden in you
If I could just sit with You a while,
if You could just hold me
Nothing could touch me
though I'm wounded,
though I die
If I could just sit with You a while,
I need You to hold me
Moment by moment,
'till forever passes by
If I could just sit with You a while,
I need You to hold me
Moment by moment,
'till forever passes by
Moment by moment,
'till forever passes by
- lyrics taken from the MercyMe website
1 comment:
He is showing off in huge ways right now and it corrosponds perfectly with what T, Reaux and Jake have been talking about the last few weeks. Totally Him.
Too often I will eagerly take the opportunity to forget, but rarely have I thought to take the opportunity to remember. I read what you have written here and am blessed immensely. He IS good and He CAN be trusted, your life is a reflection of that. Thank you for writting this, it spurs me on to look to Him in everything, good or bad. That He is my Sustainer and that everything works for His Glory. Wow.
My friend, it is a privilege and honor to walk this journey with you.
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