there is such VICTORY in that simple sentence. it feels like REDEMPTION. like somehow, all that's happened in my past has been undone. no, not undone. FORGIVEN. REDEEMED.
HOPE.
strength and courage, friends. or should i say STRENGTH and COURAGE? yes, i believe so.
i know a PEACE tonight that i've not known in a very long time. i've been spending these late hours wrapped in anxiety and dread. but not tonight. maybe it's the endorphins. maybe it's the SATISFACTION of having begun a NEW NORMAL. or maybe it's the realization that my slate has been wiped CLEAN - that i can do and be ANYTHING and ANYONE i want. such FREEDOM in those statements. i can start COMPLETELY OVER. again.
and here's the thing - that's not written with an ounce of bitterness. that's written with JOY so... strangely out of place that i know it's HOLY. there was a time in the not-so-distant past where major life events sent me reeling, sometimes for years. but not anymore. not this time. not ever again.
i started running again today.
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