twilight prayer

I'm in Alabama this morning, taking a much-needed vacation. Becky and I agreed to pray together across the miles while I'm away. My intention was to be at the beach at 5, but apparently He had other plans.

I went to sleep last night, trusting Him to wake me up. And He did, of course. I can't say that it was at 5, but it was early. I was so burdened to pray for my roommate. She is interviewing for a job and is very nervous, overwhelmed and feels totally inadequate. I prayed HARD for Him to reveal her heart to the people involved in the interview process. I prayed for her to see her worth, ability and value in Him, through Him, and given to her by Him. I wonder if she felt the supplication going to Him on her behalf?

Sometimes it's really hard to know what to do with what He shows me, or places on my heart. Should I get up and pray with her? If I don't, am I withholding from her, and Him? So began my twilight prayer. In the stillness of early morning, I lay in bed, praying with fervor for His will to be done, for the enemy to not hold sway on her thoughts, for the interviewers to see Him brightly and clearly in and through her, despite her fears. I prayed many things in that quiet place, intimate things that will not be recorded here.

The really cool thing about God is that He is no more restricted by religion and manmade rituals or practices than the man in the moon. He does not need me on my knees, or even on my face, physically speaking, to know the sincerity of my prayers, to hear my hearts cry. I believe these positions of humility are much more for us than for Him. They indicate an outward sign of an inward humility, reverence and supplication - and worship. I love that I can lie in bed and have the same conversation and have Him listen just as intently as when I'm literally on my face. He loves that I know that I am not bound to ritualistic prostrations (is that a word?) to know that He is listening intently. Not just listening; He is responding, allowing me to intercede, to converse with the God of the universe - the Most High God - Jesus, the Son of God. This transcendent, eminent, intimate God was with me, in me and through me. Imagine that.

Imagine that He is the Lover of our souls. Imagine that He is relentlessly pursuing us, desiring to engage our hearts, to restore them, to be the One we turn to in the twilight hours. Imagine it, and then believe it. Absorb it. Process it. Revel in Him and His glorious, passionate love for us.