as my grief process runs it's course, it's time to decide what to do with the rest of my life. what's the next step? find a new job? go back to school at 33? take a break and decide later? get married and be done with it all?
all are options, but only one rings true and brings me peace. guess who just applied to the graduate school at lsu? that would be yours truly. i don't have a clue what i'll be studying yet, but it's a step in the right direction and i'm more excited than i care to admit.
funny how i didn't feel out of place on campus yesterday. funny how i've been surrounded by 20-somethings for 3 years now and it's just a part of my life that i know is from Him. this is just one more way He is proving that He sees the big picture and i don't - one more way He has been equipping me for this next season.
what's ironically funny to me is that all the students i know hate projects and exams. the reality is that the difference between work and school is that you get paid for one and you pay for the other. you still have projects, tests, timelines and stress. going in the opposite direction from everyone else - as is typical for me - from work to school - brings a sense of excitement and anticipation... now, if i can just figure out what He wants me to study, i'll be doing good.
yeah, i know. His timing, right?
another cool aspect to this new turn of events is that i get to experience school as me - not as a wife - and believe me, there is a huge difference. i get to go to games (in the student section, no less!), i get to stay at school to study and work on projects, i get to take off-campus classes out in the field, i get to participate in any extra-curricular activity that my schedule will allow - i get to be a student on His terms, not my ex's. how awesome is that???
i've been given yet another opportunity to make a difference with my life - for Him and His glory. i've got a month until classes start and i cannot wait... remind me of that when i start complaining about projects and timelines...
1 comment:
Eh, knowing what classes you're going to take is way overrated. Just get a book of the class listings, close your eyes, let it plop open, put your finger on the page, see where it lands and you're off.
Very cool Ann.
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