severed

i did a lot of thinking while i was away. one consistent theme is that HE has seen fit to sever most of my ties here in baton rouge. no job, no home, lots of suffering friendships and unexpected changes of heart.

i don't belong here anymore. i don't know why or even when that happened, i just know it to be true.

in thinking through that, it occured to me that my life can be viewed in 3-year cycles, going back at least 21 years that i can really remember. i am approaching the end of this current 3-year cycle since i've been involved in the ring. i thought that i had finally found my home - my place in the world and in the Body of Christ.

apparently not. there is too much hurt here. i can no longer believe that my being here is of HIM.

this is not a woe-is-me post. this is an honest assessment of what i believe HE is doing in my life. i think HE is preparing me for the next season... whatever that means - and where-ever that is. my constant prayer is that i stay in tune with HIS voice and am able to clearly distinguish it from the rest of the voices in my head.

josh jokingly called me a nomad a few weeks back. i'm sure he didn't have a clue how close he came to nailing it.