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today was another wonderful day. i spent a total of 15 minutes at work before i got up and walked out... without saying a word to anyone. they're probably wondering what the hell's wrong with me.

well, i would be the first to admit that there is A LOT wrong with me, but the Lord is working on that. part of that process is allowing old wounds to be ripped open. yesterday, it was my dad. today, it was my embryo.

i suppose that i should catch you up on both. i lost my dad at sea in 1990. that's a story for later. after my divorce, i donated my embryo to an infertile couple. it was a blind donation, and again, a story for another time.

the words that need to be written tonight are simply this: a bad day (or a bad season) with the Lord is far better than any day without Him.

so, what prompted the walk out? stupidity. insensitivity. people talking about something that they know absolutely nothing about. in other words - npr. they had a debate today about embryonic stem cell research, and were joking about "snowflake" babies - babies born from donated embryos.

i will not get on a political or moral soapbox - at least not tonight... i will say that it's scary enough when i think about standing before my Lord one day to give an account for my life, my decisions, my words, and my actions... and i don't come close to the reach and influence they have.

For out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks. 35The good man brings good things out of the good stored up in him, and the evil man brings evil things out of the evil stored up in him. 36But I tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken. 37For by your words you will be acquitted, and by your words you will be condemned. - Matthew 12:34-37

9For this very reason, Christ died and returned to life so that he might be the Lord of both the dead and the living. 10You, then, why do you judge your brother? Or why do you look down on your brother? For we will all stand before God's judgment seat. 11It is written: " 'As surely as I live,' says the Lord, 'every knee will bow before me; every tongue will confess to God.' "[a] 12So then, each of us will give an account of himself to God. - Romans 14:9-12

12For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart. 13Nothing in all creation is hidden from God's sight. Everything is uncovered and laid bare before the eyes of him to whom we must give account. - Hebrews 4:12-13