released

i've been begging God for months for a vacation - or, more accurately stated, to be able to go away, to a quiet place, to be alone with Him. well, He's finally released me to go, and i have an odd sense of quiet expectation.

i have not been sleeping well lately, and stayed up late again tonight. when i finally had enough of tlc's medical mysteries, i went to bed and decided to read awhile. i'm re-reading "waking the dead" by john eldredge - some books need to be read time and time again, they are just so full of Truth and Jesus. listen to the part i read tonight:

Walking with God leads to receiving his intimate counsel, and counseling leads to deep restoration. As we learn to walk with God and hear his voice, he is able to bring up issues in our hearts that need speaking to. Some of those wounds were enough to break our hearts, create a rift in the soul, and so we need his healing as well. This is something Jesus walks us into - sometimes through the help of another person who can listen and pray with us, sometimes with God alone. As David said in Psalm 23, he leads us away, to a quiet place, to restore the soul. Our first choice is to go with him there - to slow down, unplug, accept the invitation to come aside. You won't find healing in the midst of the Matrix. We need time in the presence of God. This often comes on the heels of God's raising some issue in our hearts or after we've just relived an event that takes us straight to that broken place, or waking as I did to a raw emotion. - pp 140-141

as much as i know this is a much-prayed-for affirmation that it's ok, nay, it's necessary, for me to go away, i also know that someone out there needs to read these words - which is why i'm writing at 1:45 in the morning. read them again, and let His love surround you and release you.