freedom

the Lord is so amazing, i hardly know where to begin.

tuesday was such an awesome day, from the very moment of wakening to sitting here tonight, tired and thrilled, all at the same time.

i woke up this morning, very early, enveloped in anxiety. i recognized the spirit of fear/anxiety, rebuked it, and it left me - immediately. it was SO awesome. i went back to sleep, only for the scenario to play out again later. what a cool way to start the day!

i made coffee and walked the dog, praying all the while for the decision that needed to be made today. the only one that brought me any peace was the one that made no logical sense at all. i sat down at my computer, only to have 5 emails from you guys regarding the previous post. thank you so much for your prayers and encouragement - and i cannot praise the Lord enough for surrounding me with a community that loves and encourages me so steadfastly. and what an example to my mom of a godly community in action - wow - you guys have no idea how much the Lord used you this day. thank you deeply for praying for us.

the rest of the story goes like this - i made an incredibly illogical, yet obedient and peaceful decision today - i resigned from school and from my job in the lab. how crazy is that??? and even better - as i had to explain this incredibly illogical decision to decidedly logical people, i got to keep pointing to Jesus as my Lord, my reason, my strength, my faith, and my hope. glory to His name!

the next few weeks are chock full of fellowship, healing, restoration and HIM. i cannot wait to see what He's up to. He told me to take a time out, to focus on Him, on His continued healing of my heart, on loving my community, and not focusing on my circumstances - that He is in total control over every aspect of my life - He wants my attention on Him. He has freed me from the worries of circumstance - He's freed me to love Him and to obey Him, and has given me the strength and the courage to do so.

joshua 1:5-6 - I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee. Be strong and of good courage. (kjv)

how great is our God???