there

i don't want to go there - i want to stay here, where it's hard, but Secure.

i don't want to go there - i want to dwell here, where there is risk, but it's Good.

i don't want to go there - i want to rest in peace, weary from the Battle.

i don't want to go there - i want to live, where life is truly Life.

i don't want to go there - i want to be known, and not have to hide.

i don't want to go there - i want to thirst, and drink deeply of His grace.

i don't want to go there - i want to yearn, knowing that He will satisfy.

i don't want to go there - i want to awaken, heart fully alive.

i don't want to go there - i want to trust, knowing that His heart is good.

i don't want to go there - i want to know the weight of His glory, and mine.

i don't want to go there - i want the hope of a life fully restored.

i don't want to go there - i want to have joy, especially when life hurts.

i don't want to go there - i want to stop doubting, to have faith and be faithful.

i don't want to go there - i want to weep for HIM who is LOVE.

i don't want to go there - i want to not worry, and go dance with my Lord.

i don't want to go there - i want my flesh to die and resurrect in Him.

i don't want to go there - i want to abide in the constancy of Christ.

i don't want to go there - i want to be holy, pure and lovely - the Bride.

i don't want to go there - i want to desire, to long, for Jesus alone.

i don't want to go there... why do i keep going back?

but in the pain, there is beauty, for He is all that is True, and Good and Beautiful.

everything i want is already mine. i must choose, daily, to walk in that Truth... and realize, perhaps more importantly, that HE will not fail ME. (joshua 1)