seriously, part 3

the saga continues - this dance of one step toward the bank, immediately followed by a step toward school...

i was called in for pre-employment testing the day after i resigned from lsu. i was called in for an interview within minutes of sending off for grad school information. i interviewed twice when i got back from colorado, only to get the sense that i had reached the end of that road.

i had to go to the bank today to take care of some business for my mom. i have become pretty chummy with the branch manager - she is the one that encouraged me to apply in the first place. as i am sitting in her office, she takes it upon herself to email the hiring manager to see what the deal is, because if they are not considering me for the branch i applied for, then she wants me to apply for a different location - more money, closer to home, and under her area manager, which means that we would be working very closely together... which would be really quite a blessing, in and of itself, because she and i were instant friends the moment we met. how great it would be to actually work with a woman who actually likes me... the professional world is so vastly different from my community - i love my girls, but professional women can and usually are quite brutal.

i kid you not - as she is typing the email to the hiring manager, my phone rings. i didn't answer it for obvious reasons... when i checked my voicemail once i left the bank, guess who had called? that would be the grad school in seattle, wanting to set up a phone interview...

at first, i thought these series of events were a test - a 'pick door number three' type deal. now, i'm more inclined to think that the Lord is timing them together for a reason - perhaps to show me that He is all over this. i am, after all, going to need a job while i'm there... i'm at a point where my money is gone. i've been hugely blessed not to have had to work for the past 7 months, but even now, He's telling me to hurry up and wait. i constantly fight the "you're a bum" thought, and have refused to take matters into my own hands - He's told me not to look at my circumstances, He meant it, and i'm listening, for once.

so, at the moment, i'm off to mexico. i have several back-to-back trips planned after that, with the whole month of october pretty much booked solid, traveling here and there. that's another blessing - i've been all over the place since i got laid off, and it's cost me almost nothing... i get the sense that He is showing off His sovereignty - that whatever decision i make regarding taking this job, He's still sending me to school next fall. in the meantime, it's up to me to take a little pay-the-bills job to avoid being a burden on my mom, or i can choose to take the much higher paying job that will allow me to pay off my truck, help my mom whittle away at her debt, save for the move and firmly establish myself in an easily transferable position... yeah, He's got this one... and i may have actually passed the test, after all!

at the end of the day, my prayer remains the same - Your will, now and always. open and shut the doors, so that i am led directly to You.